I am the epitome of "Type A" personality. When I set my mind to something, there is no stopping me. I like to have a goal, a timeline of how that goal will be accomplished, and a list of things that will help expedite that timeline. I am a very in charge type of person, even though I try to let others take the lead when the opportunity is right.
With the dawning of a new decade, I feel almost as obligation to fulfill my Type A personality stereotype of setting an endless amount of goals and absolutely crushing them with perceived ease and grace. However, goal crushing is hardly ever easy, especially as the goal become loftier and the risks become higher. Tackling the goal is almost less important than making sure the perception of it was that "it all came naturally."
I have spent the last two decades of the century adding more and more goals to my list. Some were attained, while others were quietly swept under the rug when they didn't quiet turn out like they were suppose to. Each year I would add more and more goals, because the more the merrier right?
I finally hit a tipping point where more definitely wasn't merrier. More became exhausting, draining, and almost dangerous. I wore myself out chasing goals to the point where my goals were the reason I didn't want to get out of bed. That was a major problem. My relationships with my friends, family, and horses began to suffer. Thankfully a friend told me that the way I was feeling wasn't normal, and it caused me to take a deeper look at myself and my desires.
With all this being discovered in the final months of the previous decade, I have geared myself up for the inevitable 2020 goal question.
What are your goals for 2020? Even more ponderous what are your goals for the new decade?
My goal for 2020 and the decade to come is to be more intentional. Yes, this is a broad answer, but I am hoping as the week and months go on, my focus on intentionality will bring forth goals that are worth pursuing. These goals I will want to chase after not simply "because I can", but because they are something that will add meaning to my life. These goals will affect those around me in a positive manner. These new goals won't drain me of the life I want to live. My goal is to enjoy my moments here.
So let's take this all back to Rooster. Last year I had lofty goals of wanting to win the World, win lots of all arounds, add more classes, show more horses, simply show more even. But this year, I want to focus on enjoying the shows I do attend. Last year I spent so much time chasing each class, I ignored dinner reservations, sleep, break time with friends. I lost the joy of what it is that we are all a part of. This year, I am going to appreciate each stride that Rooster and I take together. I am going to be more focused on perfecting the classes that we do instead of trying to add more and be simply average at everything.
Cheers to 2020 my friends! May we all find the joy within ourselves!